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Interests: I am a stay at home mom to my daughter Zadie and my son Phoenix. I have an amazing husband and a wonderful family! I love the Lord and love getting to know others that do too!
Expertise: ...I'm not an expert at much of anything.
Occupation: SAHM
Industry: Early Childhood Education ;)
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| 1 John 1:6-7
If we claim to have fellowship with Him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.
What is living in the darkness exactly? Of course we think of the big wrongs...murder, theft and that sort. But what about the little wrongs? What about listening to, looking at or reading things that we know we shouldn't? What about not being loving and kind with our children? What about when we pick a fight with our spouse just because? What about spending too much time on the computer and not enough on our other responsibilities? What about not spending time in the Word? I've been feeling the Holy Spirit convicting me lately. (of all these things and more). Actually, he convicts me a lot and of a lot of things but my ears are more deaf and my heart is harder than I would like. I'm trying to learn to listen to his gentle nudges instead of making him hit me over the head with reality checks these days. You would think that at the ripe old age of 33 (yes, I'm joking) I'd have at least some of it down by now. Maybe I'm more dense than most...
One of our convictions as a family (and I know I'll get a lot of flack for this...but hey, you gotta stick to your convictions) is not to celebrate Halloween. At all. We don't' dress up, we don't trick or treat and we don't go to parties. I know that's very non-traditional even in Christian circles, but it's what we believe is right. I believe it's an evil holiday with evil roots and I don't want my kids to be a part of it. (Mom, what was the name of that book that you got for us kids when we were little? The one that explains the history behind Halloween...). I don't like this time of year because it's SO easy to ease up on our convictions. It really wouldn't be a big deal if we went to the Halloween party at a local church, right? Wrong...for us at least. I'm not saying that everyone has to have the same convictions as us...by all means, don't let me tell you what you should believe about areas that are "gray" like this. Let the Spirit of God speak to you.
Are you listening to His spirit? How does He speak to you? I'm honestly interested  And now that you all know of some of my convictions you can keep me accountable :D Ok, I know my thoughts were rambling today, but I've got one kid to get down for his nap and lunch to figure out. I'll leave you with a few pictures...
Zadie's new dance movess...
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| I've become a slacker when it comes to posting. Not because I don't want to write...more because 1. there really isn't a whole lot going on with me and 2. I haven't been feeling good. But I decided that I'd update today...and to try to update more often in the future. I guess a few of you still read even if my life is pretty boring.
Lyme Stuff
I'm beginning to feel like I have my own personal pharmacy. Let's see, I have my 3 lyme meds, my inhaler (soon to be plural), my reflux pill, my sleeping pill and my allergy pill. That's 6 pills a day. I don't REALLY feel sick until I start to count the pills! I'm doing ok with my Lyme, although I wouldn't say that I'm doing good right now. I'm not non functional, but I'm just so tired all the time. I know...it comes with the territory. My joints and back have been bothering me a lot lately. It's hard for me to tell sometimes if my pain is actually from the lyme or if it's just because I'm so messed up. I have a lot of damage in my back (bone spurs etc.) from being so reckless as a kid...mostly from horse accidents. Probably a little of both.
I love that fall is finally here. Fall always makes me want to get in the kitchen to bake. Yesterday I made gingerbread biscotti and it turned out really good! I've also started making fresh bread every day or every other day instead of buying bread. It's so much yummier and hardly any work with my breadmaker. Here is the biscotti recipe if you want to try it...it wasn't very hard!
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Gingerbread-Biscotti/Detail.aspx?prop31=4
The kids are doing good. They are both getting so big! Zadie is tall...and keeps growing out of her pants. She's in 3T's right now and they are on the verge of being too short for her. She's still in swimming lessons and is actually doing really well. She's smart and always keeps us on our toes! She's not taking naps at all anymore and, although by the end of the day things are getting a bit rough, it makes bedtime SO much easier!
Phoenix is getting bigger and loosing some of his baby fat. He's still stocky but you probably wouldn't call him chubby anymore. He's also talking a lot now...every day he uses new words. His favorite thing to do is to pull a chair up to the kitchen counter and "help" me cook. He tastes EVERYTHING (even the yeast that goes in my bread). He's got funny taste for a kid...he loves things like Chili and black beans, but won't eat a sandwich.
ok, I'll leave you with a few pictures...it's nap time for Phoenix and as soon as he's asleep I need to take my shower! (Zadie usually takes one with me so that takes care of bathing one kid today ;D )
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| So for over a week we have all been sick here. At first we thought it was the flu since both kids got fever before the cough and runny nose set in. Of course we took them to the dr...and the conclusion was that it was a virus, but not the flu. So of course I got it and now Brett is getting it. It's been a pretty miserable week. I think I got it the worst...of course I have asthma so any kind of respiratory illness always seems to hit me hard. On Saturday my sweet husband let me sleep in and I slept until almost 1:00 pm!!! I can't remember ever sleeping that late! I needed it though. I'm on the mend but I still feel like I need extra rest.
On to some more fun news. We got a dog! I'm an animal person...we've always had cats, but until now we have not lived someplace where we could get a dog. I've had my heart set on a Collie...I grew up with Collie's and they are SO good with kids. I wanted my kids to have the experience of a childhood pet and at the same time wanted a dog that I knew I could TRUST with the kids.
He's super sweet. He likes all of us and loves to be petted and fussed over. He also loves to run around the yard with Zadie. I have a feeling that those two are going to be fast friends. He's still really nervous...any loud noises or real sudden movements make him kind of jumpy...but he's always gentle with us. He hasn't once growled or nipped or even acted annoyed with the kids hanging on him. He also hasn't had any accidents in the house or on the back porch (where he sleeps) even though he's not really house broken. He's a good boy :) We named him Vino after the place where we had our first date and where Brett and his brother used to play all the time. I would have LOVED to get a puppy, but between my kids and my Lyme I knew it would probably be more work than I could handle. Maybe someday!
We got Vino for the kids...but honestly he's just as much mine :)
I'm still struggling with this new Lyme infection and am not feeling good. I've started the meds though so hopefully they'll do their job and I'll start feeling better.
Ok, I guess that's about it for now. Hope you all have a good week!
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| So yesterday I signed into my yahoo email account to check my mail. I happened to be chatting with my sister, Julia, at the time. For the life of me, I could NOT find the "compose" mail button. Just about the time I was convinced that my Lyme was making me nuts my sister told me that Yahoo had changed things and it no longer said "compose", but now said "new". That was actually a big relief to me. I know that Lyme can mess with my brain and I was really starting to worry!
I'm frustrated with this new lyme infection. I haven't been super sick yet...and have just had some of the more annoying symptoms. Mostly I've been having fatigue, joint pain and irritability. I'm having a few neurological symptoms too, but nothing new (numb patches on my back and that sort of thing). I've started having anxiety attacks too...like last Friday night Brett and I had a date and I had an anxiety attack in the restaurant. Honestly they're more annoying than anything else...I know what they are now so they don't really worry me...it's just frustrating to have them even when I know whats going on. I've already started my antibiotics so hopefully I'll start feeling better soon.
Brett has been gone for work this week. None of us like it much when he travels. The days just feel really long for us and the kids constantly ask for him (or cry for him). He gets back in late tonight so we'll all be glad to have him home this weekend.
The kids are doing good. I actually weened Phoenix from the bottle this week. (he's changing from a baby to a little boy :( ) In the last few weeks we've switched him from formula to whole milk. Those of you who know us and know his history of not eating can pray for him. I'm nervous that he's going to start loosing weight. But he's almost 19 months old (on the 29th) and at some point we've got to try having him off formula. He's already had it for almost 7 months longer than Zadie did. His little personality is also starting to show a stubborn streak. I can't imagine where he got that!
Zadie is finishing up her first round of swimming lessons...her last one is today. She's done awesome! I signed her up for lessons in October too so that will be good. She's becoming much less scared of going under and stuff so I want to keep working on that kind of stuff.
Alright, I guess that's about it for now!
My curly headed little boy...
Little Pirate girl...
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| I woke up this morning still tired, kind of out of it, and slightly grumpy. Ok, so that's how I wake up most mornings! I'm very aware of the fact that I'm not a morning person. Really, I'm not human until about 10 am. Those of you who know me well are probably snickering behind your hands because you know this is a bit of an understatement. And of course, since I'm not a morning person, I've been blessed with two little early risers. Zadie is more like me...it takes her awhile to wake up. Most mornings she wants to sit in the rocking chair with her chocolate milk and her early PBS or Disney cartoons and just to be left alone until she's had enough time to wake up. Phoenix is a little more like his dad in this area. Usually when I go in to get him from a nap he's already awake and actually jumping on the bed...happy as can be. THANKFULLY I have been blessed with a husband who knows I'm not a morning person and who 99% of the time gets up with the kids and lets me sleep! Yes, I do know that he's a gem.
I digress.
Anyway, this morning I was feeling like I just wanted to be left alone for a little while, but Phoenix kept bringing me books and getting up on my lap to be read to. He LOVES to be read to. So of course I pretended I wasn't grumpy and I read to him. We had probably read 10 or 12 books before I felt the need to go downstairs to get my coffee. Of course Phoenix had to come with me. He's learning to navigate the stairs by himself so I stood at the bottom for several minutes and waited for him make his way down on his booty. When he got to the bottom I hugged him and told him that I love him. (I make it to not only hug and kiss my kids a lot but to actually tell them that I love them). To my surprise and delight he said "Wuv you" to me twice! That's the first time he's said that to me!! That little boy made my day. Boy am I glad I pushed away my early morning grumpiness to read to him, hug him and tell him that I love him.
I'd like to think that I treasure my kids...that I treasure every moment with the people I love. God's been speaking to my heart about having no regrets when my time here on earth is finished. We lost two beloved family members this summer (my grandfather and Brett's grandfather) and have just recently found out that Brett's grandmother has cancer. Life is short. People that we love usually leave us before we are ready to let them go. So yes, I still rock my almost-19-month-old to sleep for every nap and bed time. Several times I day while I'm rocking him I get to look down into that sweet little face and treasure the moment. And yes, Zadie gets "snuggle time" every night before bed. Brett and I take turns and I know that he treasures those moments as much as I do.
in the rocking chair with Phoenix...
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